Lion is a very smart boy, but sometimes he thinks too much. Out of nowhere he asked me last night if I even like his cage. Hmmm. How to answer? Carefully. I said I didn’t know if I really like it. He said if he asked to have it removed what would I do. I said I’d have to find out if he wanted it removed because he wanted it removed or because he thought I wanted it removed. He said that was not an answer. Sure it is.
When we started this I was doing it for him. I was told to embrace my inner top. I didn’t know I had one. I’m still not sure I do. But I won’t know if I don’t try. And removing the cage would only prove that I don’t.
Yesterday he told me that he seemed to be hornier than usual lately. Since he’s always horny I didn’t really respond. I think he wants me to flip a switch and be horny too. I explained that after so much time not being horny, it will take some time to get back to it. A person who is overweight didn’t just wake up one morning with 40 extra pounds hanging off of them. It took time to get that way just like it will take time to lose the weight once they start exercising.
Another thing his questioning did was pull the rug out from under me. I thought I was doing pretty well. Maybe not pretty well, but I thought I was making progress. Now I’m unsure again. I have two choices. I can give up and uncage him, which I know he doesn’t want. Or I can try even harder. I’m trying harder.
So, my lion, your request to have your cage removed has been denied by order of Mrs. Lion.