June 2014 (Page 3)

Fine, my pet. If you need a specific date of your next orgasm, I will give it to you. Your own personal fireworks will happen on July 4th. For this particular run you will get no time off for good behavior and no possibility of extension for poor behavior. Just twelve long days of denial. I know you can do it.

I can’t guarantee I will give Lion a firm number from now on. I’m considering a few options. For example, if I decide on a five day limit but I do not touch him at all will it be more difficult than a ten day limit with intense teasing? What if I do nothing but anal play for whatever period of time I choose? I could always tell him a specific date, knowing full well I will actually make him wait more or less depending on my mood at the time. The option of making him choose a numbered card is still on the table although he does not like it. Perhaps I’ll tweak it and I’ll choose the card. The outcome is the same, but he may be balking at sealing his own fate. I also presented the idea of rolling dice, and on the way to work this morning, I amended that to include the idea that the number on each die could be added or multiplied together. Multiplying seems evil. Double sixes would be very difficult for both of us.

Once I decide on a method for determining how long he waits I have to come up with ways for him to earn time off for good behavior. It can’t be for initiating sex. He’s supposed to be doing that anyway. He does help out around the house. I thought about giving him a day off for every ten orgasms he gives me, but then I can imagine him never leaving me alone! No, there has to be a specific sets of tasks. I guess that’s my next goal.

Lion is probably not very fond of any of these ideas but I’m sure he’s proud of me for even coming up with them. I am too. It still doesn’t turn me on to do things to him, but I think I am becoming more open to making the decisions.

To Lion there are eight very long days until he gets relief. To me, there are eight very short days until I have some decisions to make. We always seem to have a different perspective.

[I am proud of you, dear Lioness. You’re right, I’m not very fond of any of those ideas, but I am very glad you are not worrying about whether I like them or not. Your teasing is keeping me very horny. — Lion]

(Wednesday, June 25 2014) Yesterday, Mrs. Lion wrote in her The Steamroller post that when she proposes something I get too excited and go off the deep end (my words, not hers). There is truth in that. But it isn’t the whole story. Her first point was that she only said she was thinking about making my lockup two weeks with possible time off for good behavior. My memory is that she said I would wait two weeks. Why should that matter? Why did I react the way I did?

The answer is basic to the forced male chastity experience. In my mind if a time period is mentioned, it represents a goal, if you will, that I will have to reach in order to orgasm again. It gives the caged male a target, something to look forward to, like Christmas or his birthday. Up until now, we hadn’t had any firm orgasm dates. I got to come when the stars and Mrs. Lion decided I should. I can understand that in her mind, as my keyholder, this is completely right. She absolutely decides if and when I can squirt.

What I think she may not understand is that knowing the next date gives me something to anticipate. So, even though I was unhappy I had to wait so long, I also felt more comfortable in that the end is known. It’s a bit like saying, you will get a new sports car for your birthday, but I’m not promising when you get it. A great gift, but hard to anticipate. I’m finding that anticipation is a very nice part of being a caged male. It’s like our dog; she knows that before I walk out the door to go to work she gets a treat. So, she gets very excited when she believes I am about to leave. It’s really cute. That doesn’t mean she won’t get a treat other times. It just means she knows she will get that treat each time I leave for work.

When Mrs. Lion told me that I would come again in two weeks, I got excited. I had something to grumble about and also something to keenly anticipate. This doesn’t mean she can’t decide to give me an orgasm sooner, or that she can delay it because I displeased her. It means that barring some naughtiness, I can look forward to coming in two weeks. If she decides to get me off sooner, I promise I won’t be disappointed.

In her post, What’s In Store For Lion she proposed some new rules. One that she said she was seriously considering was orgasm control; require me to hold back until she signaled me (tickling my balls during oral sex) I could come. I reacted to that proposal. I think it is a fine idea. I then discussed in my post, It Had To Happen, ways she could condition me to control my orgasms. She responded that my response made her feel guilty if she decides not to institute that rule. I get that.

I guess you could consider this topping from the bottom. Maybe it is. My intention was to present my thinking on this subject. I had been thinking about orgasm control for a long time. It interests me because it is a form of control that actually makes me change. Wearing my cage effectively prevents orgasm. I don’t have to change a bit to be made to wait any length of time Mrs. Lion wants. She has the key and unless she releases me, no matter how much I want to come, I can’t. Orgasm control is very different. She can’t physically prevent me from coming if she is stimulating my cock. Her stimulation is intended to arouse me and eventually get me off. So, if she wants to control orgasm under this condition, I will require conditioning. Optimally, if I am truly trained (which I am not sure is even possible and I am not proposing this as Mrs. Lion’s goal), I won’t be able to orgasm when stimulated without permission, and I will orgasm when told regardless of stimulation. That conditioning is an interesting fantasy. A more limited version of it is useful if Mrs. Lion wants to ride me without allowing me to come. Otherwise, it could be an amusing party trick for her.

I understood her post. I didn’t expect that it would all come instantly true. I just saw it as real progress in her thinking as my keyholder. I am proud of her for even thinking this way. Like my other fantasies, I wonder if I will be sorry I shared it. It was something of a shock to hear that my time would be two weeks. For a bit I wondered if this was the beginning of an alarming trend. Then I realized that what I was worried about wasn’t so much my orgasms (though I do love those), but was sexual attention.

I needn’t have worried. Last night, I spent prime time (8pm to 11pm) watching TV with the Njoy butt plug (the large one) up my ass. She wrote she might do it so I wouldn’t feel neglected while she did some work. I didn’t. I think I am going to be getting a great deal of anal attention. I hope that at some point Mrs. Lion will try me wearing a strap-on and pleasuring her.

In other news, my Jail Bird with the much-shortened cage arrived, unfortunately Mature Metal forgot to return my base ring. So now I have a new, very tiny cage but no ring. So for now at least, I am still in the Chinese cage. Stay tuned.

If you’ve been following along, you may have noticed that Mrs. Lion is taking a much more active role in my chastity. Over the last few days she has proposed new rules and yesterday announced that she was going to make me wait at least two weeks before my next orgasm. She also said that I will have to learn to control when I come; that she wants me to wait until she signals me before I can orgasm.

My reaction to these developments is mixed. On one hand it is exactly what I had hoped would happen. On the other, now that it is happening I am starting to worry a bit. I realize this is irrational. I couldn’t have believed that once I surrendered control of when I could come that I would be allowed release whenever I thought I should come. That would certainly be contrary to the reason I am caged. Knowing that doesn’t stop the reality from hitting me rather hard. Waiting nine days wasn’t all that easy, especially since Mrs. Lion kept my attention firmly focused on getting off. Tease and deny is a very effective tool for that. I realize that two weeks is just five days longer. Five days can feel like an eternity when my penis sends those little tingles up to my brain.

Some of those feelings remind me of when I was a cub and I just had to have that special toy. Life could be so dark and gloomy without that desired object. All these years later I can feel the little brat in me sending similar messages. But at least now I know that such petulant feelings will do no good. Another part of me is happy that Mrs. Lion is now taking the reins and I am definitely not in control any more. She really does own my most primal behavior. I absolutely can’t orgasm without her letting me.

She has also added a new, more difficult wrinkle; when she provides sexual stimulation, whether by hand mouth or vagina, I am not permitted to orgasm without explicit permission. I am pretty sure that right now I will fail miserably at that. I know from reading and conversations in the past that males can be trained this way. However, the methods are necessarily harsh to make it work. A fairly standard approach is to deal with “accidents” very severely. After the accident has been cleaned up by the male, a very unpleasant spanking follows at once. This isn’t the fun sort of spanking I normally get. I do like those! This is the kind where the keyholder restrains the male or sits on his back and really does a number on his butt with a nasty paddle. This is true negative conditioning.

Do I really want Mrs. Lion to do this? I’m ambivalent. I really hate that sort of spanking. Well, I’m supposed to. But I recognize the value of being trained to only come with permission. It makes me more sexually useful between authorized releases. Can I do it without many accidents? I am sure I can’t. I have no idea how to stop myself. So, if Mrs. Lion wants to train me this way, she will have to punish me severely in order to provide the negative conditioning needed to make it work. I will be very unhappy about it at the time. I know an accident will have repercussions beyond the painful spanking. It will almost by definition extend my waiting time before my next authorized orgasm. Am I proposing this practice? No, not exactly. I am reluctantly offering advice on how to succeed with this training. The fact is that I will have a very hard time learning this skill. Mrs. Lion will have to perform this training very regularly, almost daily, for it to work. This is one of those things that she has to decide she wants to invest her time in doing. I don’t have any choice either way.

There is a less violent possibility. We can use the shock collar to negatively condition me to orgasm without permission. This is far more humane. If I can tell Mrs. Lion just before I hit the point of no return (not always possible, but I think I can learn), she can hit the red (+2) button on her remote and the shock may be enough to distract me from the orgasm as well as unconsciously condition me not to orgasm without permission. I have no idea if this is effective. It is pure behavioral conditioning, so it might. The instant feedback, even if I do end up having an accident might actually work over time.

The thing is that of all the stuff we have discussed or tried, this particular form of training isn’t something I can simply do because she wants me to. I can’t even do it because I want to. It is behavioral conditioning of the most primal sort. I don’t know if I will ever succeed. But if Mrs. Lion wants to do it, I will try my best.