I am debating with myself whether to reschedule Lion’s orgasm to his next date rather than give him one on the 5th. It was such an intense debate on the way to work that I almost missed my exit off the highway. Evil Mrs. Lion thinks I shouldn’t have given him a bonus orgasm the other night and thinks he should have to pay for that. Nice Mrs. Lion thinks a bonus orgasm now and then never hurt anybody. I’m sure Lion agrees with Nice Mrs. Lion. But there’s a part of him that may agree with Evil Mrs. Lion. Regular Mrs. Lion thinks it’s none of his business. If I am truly in charge then I can give him an orgasm whenever I want.
To make matters even more complicated, I know I’m PMSing. I can feel it. I should have realized it yesterday when the littlest things were bothering me. Today I am avoiding talking to people because, well, because I don’t want to get fired for anything I might say. I decided last night that I will put off scheduling my own orgasm date until next week. At this point I would probably schedule it for September. I will probably just keep Lion’s orgasm date on the 5th for the same reason.
Some of you might think that Lion would love having me in my current state of volatility. He should get some very good punishment from me now. It seems like it would be very easy for him to piss me off and earn a massive spanking. Unfortunately for him, I don’t do that. I can’t see doing it out of anger or frustration. It would make me feel worse. So I think it’s best I delay any decisions and punishments until I am less frantic.
Sorry, Lion.
[Lion — Truth be told, I am still a bit sore (I somehow got a bruise/cut on my penis; probably the velcro from our play). So, unless it is much better tomorrow, I was planning on asking for an orgasm delay until it feels better. Of course, I could be just fine in the morning.]
I feel the same way. I can’t imagine a discipline session, or anything for that matter, going well when I am feeling stress out frustrated about anything… It’s nice to know it’s a common thought.