Too Far?

I’ve been trying to figure out how I feel about Lion’s post today. So far I feel a little guilty. I never wanted to change him. Of course I’m glad that I can still excite him, but it never bothered me when he got excited by other women. As long as he didn’t stray it was fine. I don’t think he’s ever thought about straying, even when I wasn’t paying much attention to him. The thing that keeps running through my mind is that locking him up has caused him to become some sort of eunuch.

That may be harsh. I know he’s still able to perform. But if other women don’t excite him then how long will it be until I don’t either? Is this a normal by-product of chastity? Should I find him a hooker to test his theory of a pinch hitter? Should I just shut up and be happy that he only has eyes and a hard-on for me?

Is this something that I should be happy about? I mean the whole point is that I own him and he should only get attention from me. But it freaks me out a little. And actually I’m thinking it might be a deal breaker. I’m not okay with this. I’m sure many keyholders are yelling at the computer right now. I’m crazy. Don’t I know this is exactly how things are supposed to work? What’s wrong with me?

I’ll tell you what’s wrong with me. I agreed to do this because it makes Lion happy. If he can’t get aroused by things that used to arouse him then I’ve changed him. I figured he’d always try to get hard in his cage. I thought that would be one of the things that reminded him who was in charge. If I’m dieting and I know I can’t have chocolate that doesn’t mean I don’t still want chocolate. I don’t ever want to get to a point where I don’t want chocolate. I don’t want Lion to get to a point where he doesn’t want sex.

Maybe it’s just a phase. Maybe I don’t need to find that hooker. Maybe I don’t need to give him a vacation from chastity until things “normalize”. Maybe I’m making a bigger deal out of this than it is. I hope.

[Lion — I don’t think the “changes” are that extreme. There are two things at work here: First, I’m getting on in years and erection without physical stimulation are getting rare, even without the cage. Second, there is a “learning” process. If no stimulation is forthcoming if I do get an erection in my cage, then I think I am less likely to get one in the first place. I still find women exciting to see, but I don’t react physically much now. (see reason number one). Upon further thought, I am very sure any woman could get me off if she “pinch hit” for Mrs. Lion. Most important, my lioness is making me very happy by enforced chastity and FLR. She’s right. I wouldn’t stray anyway.

What do you think?