Self Control

Last night was punishment night. Lion reminded me early in the day and again just before 8 pm. He had nothing on his list again. He said he knows he can’t possibly be as good as that. I will have to pay more attention. But I have been paying attention. And he hasn’t done anything that even remotely bothers me. I asked if I should punish him for not making me punish him. Of course I was being facetious. I don’t want him to deliberately misbehave. So what do I do when he’s consistently good? I don’t want to make up rules that mean nothing. Dropping ice cubes means nothing unless he drops the last of the ice cubes and I need some. I’m thinking of resorting to the nit picking things. Why doesn’t he ever wring out the sponge at the kitchen sink? I pick it up and it’s dripping wet. Yuck! Why doesn’t he ever notice that the soap in the shower is running out? I can’t tell you how many times I’ve had none. And there is one big(ish) thing that he’s already aware of: why does he wind up with most of the blankets? I joke with him that he just wants me to move closer to him during the night but sometimes I am only half covered in the morning. That’s it, my pet. Three new rules.

Last night was also play night. I started out with my hand but eventually decided he needed oral stimulation. The biggest problem with this is that I am prone to going too far. And don’t think I didn’t want to last night. I can’t believe it’s only been four days (five now) since his orgasm. I really wanted to give him one. I almost did. But then I asked him if he could wait. And when he said he could I told him I didn’t know if I could. In the end I decided to wait. A while later he said he might use his coupon for an extra play session tonight. Will I be able to wait if he does? I’m not sure.

Lion did make a suggestion yesterday. Since I prefer to be able to tell him how many days he has left to wait, maybe I can tell him that he has at least X number of days left. I like the idea, but I think we need to give the mystery date a chance. I don’t want to give up on it without really trying. Maybe when we get to the end of this wait, assuming I don’t blow it by blowing him early, we can try his suggestion. I just need to exercise some self control. And maybe less oral stimulation for him. Poor Lion.