Down Time

I thought I slept okay last night. I guess not since I’m already falling asleep at work. Eventually I’ll get a second wind. Of course, it would be much better to actually get sleep at night. Being tired makes me less inclined to want to play with Lion. He’s been less inclined to play anyway with all the stress he’s been under. We’re hoping he’ll hear good news on Friday. Yes, we were hoping for that good news last Friday or even Monday. These companies have a way of dragging things out. They don’t realize the havoc that waiting wreaks.

We didn’t play much last night. Lion reported being moderately horny yesterday, but he wasn’t really in the mood to play. Despite saying he should have to be ready for me, I didn’t push the issue. Sometimes stuff happens. I had headaches last week. He’s been stressed. We’re both tired. As much as we try to make it a priority, sex is not at the forefront. Money, or lack thereof, is. Boring. I know. It’s difficult to get excited about sex when you’re expending a huge amount of effort just putting one foot in front of the other. And Lion has been under attack from allergies. The last thing I want to do is brush the dog and vacuum when I get home, but in order to make life bearable for Lion, that’s what I have to do.

Lion wrote about chastity being a solid part of our lives now. It’s definitely not going away. Female led marriage? I’m not ready to throw in the towel yet. I know I haven’t gotten very far with it. Why would I want to stop now? If anything, I should be taking more control. It might take some of the pressure off of Lion. As far as the punishment part is concerned, I haven’t decided if he needs to be punished right now. Life is punishing enough. Do I really need to add to it?

I did not do any swats last night. I can do them tonight if I want to. I can do them any time. I still owe him a few punishment swats from when he moved the other day. But If I’m suspending punishment for now, he may not get them. We didn’t talk much about it last night. We took some down time. We’ll get it sorted out soon. Hopefully before we get some good news on the job front.