We’re Not Going Back There

We didn’t play last night. I was in pain. Lion was allergic. We’re a mess. But today Lion says “someone” wants to come out and play. He says he hopes I feel better. Even if I don’t, we’ll play. I don’t want him cooped up in the cage because of me. And even if Lion didn’t feel like playing tonight, I might unlock him just because.

Lion is concerned that we would go back to our inertia of pre-chastity. I could see myself just coming home every night and vegetating. That’s my normal state of being. But there’s no way I want to go back to the way things were. With or without the cage, I hope I would maintain things the way they are now. We were never not close, but we are definitely closer now. And we are more likely to share what we’re feeling rather than bottle it all up inside. I’m sure there are still things we’re afraid to discuss. Sometimes those things come out in a post. Sometimes we figure out a roundabout way to discuss them.

The point is, we may not be able to play because one of us feels ill or life intrudes, but neither of us wants to go back in time. We’ve made too many strides to give up. Even if we can’t play for a number of days in a row, we need to keep play in the forefront. Perhaps we’ll need to make sure we talk about it every night. Maybe something along the lines of, “I’m sorry you’re not feeling well. We can just snuggle if you’d like.” Or maybe, “I’m sorry I’m not feeling well. Would you mind if we just snuggle tonight.?” This way we’re acknowledging that play isn’t going to happen, but we haven’t forgotten that we should have.

I don’t know. Just a thought. It may be very elementary to some, but I think we need to keep on top of things like this to maintain what we’ve worked so hard to achieve.

What do you think?