We’ve been in a lull. In her post yesterday, Mrs. Lion said that a key reason that I need to continue wearing a chastity device, whether I want to or not, is that she will likely slip back into the old pattern of ignoring sex for me. I think that is true. I will, in turn, withdraw feeling rejected and we might return to our prior, undesirable situation.
Until very recently I believed that we were past such regression. But now I’m not so sure. Yesterday afternoon I mentioned that this was the weekend for. Mrs. Lion looked unhappy. I asked why; was she tired of doing this for me? She replied that it was just one more thing that had to be done. Our sexual activity has fallen off too. Yes, we have both been tired; and yes, I’m worried that after my work contract runs out next week that I won’t be able to find work again. This could explain our lack of activity. But I’m not so sure.
Has enforced chastity andbecome chores? Is being on the dominant side of the power exchange become work? It’s not that there are competing activities dragging us away from play. Yes, we run errands on weekends. But after 4pm we are done and the TV goes on and Mrs. Lion retreats to her iPad. If I say something there is a good chance that she will put it down and do something sexual with me. But it requires my initiation. Similarly, if I break a rule, she notices, but forgets to punish me later. Again, if I remind her, my butt will feel her wrath. But I am the active party.
As she wrote yesterday, Mrs. Lion knows she isn’t very consistent. Her nature is more passive and reactive. One of the main reasons I am locked in a chastity device is to remind her to be consistent in the role she has accepted. I’ve worried that I could end up in the device and she would retreat back into her former, reactive self. I think that is what is happening now.
Last year, we went through much harder times with way more exhausting intrusions without missing a beat. Of course, I was writing a lot more about things I would like to try. My wonderful lioness gamely tried them. I’ve done almost none of that in recent months. And our activities have nearly ceased. I don’t want to control things. I don’t want to indirectly stimulate activities by writing about ideas I have. Most of all, I don’t want to go back to the way it was before enforced chastity, especially if I do it wearing a chastity device. I’m not a naturally consistent person. I help myself stay on top of things by using my calendar to remind me of things I want to do. I can’t tell Mrs. Lion how she can be consistent. But I feel it when she isn’t.
I’m not suggesting that we stop enforced chastity and ourmarriage. I am saying that the way things are going now doesn’t work for me. I’m pretty sure it isn’t working very well for Mrs. Lion either. We need to talk and work out how to get things going again.