It’s finally Thursday. I’ve been thinking it was Thursday all week. Now it feels like Friday. It’s not because I was trying to hurry the week along. Lion leaves on another business trip Sunday. I don’t like when he’s gone. I’m lonely without him. It will be worse this time. He usually leaves on Monday. This time I’ll have all day Sunday without him. Yuck!
Last night we didn’t play. We were both tired and out of it. Lion snoozed a bit so he felt better. I didn’t so I was still out of it. I probably could have played with him but I just want to get better and I figured I still needed rest. We just held hands.
On a normal day, I realize how lucky I am to have Lion. Some days, it completely baffles me how I got so lucky. I mean, if you think about it, there are millions of people out there. How do you find “the one” out of all of them? And it’s not like he’s just someone who’s good enough to marry. He’s the one I’m supposed to be with. Even after all these years, it still feels right. Actually, it feels perfect.
We have had our disagreements over the years. I’ve usually clammed up and let him win by default. But they haven’t even been big disagreements. We didn’t have many problems when he was out of work. Yes, we had financial problems. I mean relationship problems. We just navigated through it. It wasn’t his fault. Things rarely are his fault or my fault. We just don’t relate that way. Instead of saying, “You forgot to do this”, we figure out how to fix the problem.
Rolling with the punches may not seem to fit in with. It all depends on what the rules are. Forgetting to take the garbage out or not making dinner are not rules. They’re chores that we both share equally. Can I make a rule that says it’s Lion’s job to take out the garbage? Yup. And he would go along with it. But who broke my legs? Why can’t I take out the garbage? Not that I’m saying I should be the one who always takes out the garbage. We’re doing perfectly fine ignoring it till one of us cracks and takes it out. It’s not that we’re each hoping the other does it. Why doesn’t he/she just take this out already? It’s more of a time and attitude issue. I don’t have time or energy to take it out. Maybe later. And then one of us is surprised when it’s gone.
Anyway, I digress. My point is that I am extremely lucky to have Lion. He worries that I’ll find someone else better for me. I don’t see that happening. It doesn’t really matter anyway. I’m not looking. I’ve got my soulmate.