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After my post yesterday, saying I wanted Lion to wait until March, I decided he had suffered long enough. I was teasing him orally and the slightest movements seemed to be getting him close. When I decided to give him his orgasm, however, it took a little bit of doing. I was surprised. Maybe he’d conditioned himself to let me know well in advance that he was close so I wouldn’t accidentally make him come. That’s okay. I like a challenge.

I don’t think he had any idea until he was about to come that it was his night. He had a theory that an orgasm would hurt after being denied for so long. Or, at the very least, that it wouldn’t be as good as your ordinary orgasm. He was wrong. He gave me lots of creme filling and he enjoyed giving it to me. He was a very happy, non-frustrated Lion last night. Now I think he’s a little nervous about whether he’ll have to come every night for 22 nights. I haven’t decided. It’s a lot of work for me. It’s an interesting experiment, but is it worth the trouble?

Lion wants to see if an orgasm every night will get him back in “fighting” shape. Many years ago he could come every night. Now we’re both older. Even if he could, do I want him to? What would happen to enforced chastity if he gets an orgasm every night? Sure, he’s still only having sex with me, but it’s not exactly enforced chastity anymore. Yes, he’d be locked up so he couldn’t masturbate, but would he even want to masturbate?

If we started tonight, I think I’d have some trouble getting him aroused after such a big orgasm last night. We haven’t talked about Lion weather. I assume it’s cool. I can’t imagine he’s horny again already. So let’s assume I give it a few days. What if we started March 1? From then until March 22, he’d have an orgasm a night. By March 5th, I bet he’d be tired of it. I’d have to bring out the Magic Wand more often. Even then, it would be difficult. I’m not saying it can’t be done. I’m wondering if it should be done.

As of right now, and we’ll talk about it again, I’m thinking we’ll go back to random wait times of anywhere from a day to 14 days. The longer wait was an anomaly because of Lion’s illness. Those roughly two weeks of his not feeling well just sort of fell into my lap and I decided to extend them into the longer wait. Even a 14 day wait will not happen often. I like to mix it up to keep him off balance.

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In: 2.0, Lion's Journal, Sex

The other night, as Mrs. Lion finished putting my cage back on after teasing, she said that maybe in March after my orgasm, I would have to come every night for as many days as I waited this time. That will be at least 25, since on March 1 my wait will have been 25 days. Fortunately, for me the drought ended last night after 22 days.

I’ve read that a man’s ability to ejaculate depends on how often he gets to come. The idea is that if a male only comes once in many days, his ability to orgasm will diminish to match the actual frequency of his ejaculations. Conversely, if he ejaculates frequently — say, once a day — he will retain that ability throughout his life.

I know that when we first started enforced chastity, Mrs. Lion decided that she would make me come every day. She reasoned that if she controls my sex, she can make me come after a long wait, or if she likes, more than once a day. I was a bit disappointed because I wanted to experience being forced to wait. But she persisted. After less than a week, I was not looking forward to that daily wank. It just wasn’t fun anymore.

So, when Mrs. Lion proposed the extended daily orgasm plan, I wondered what it will be like. I know it won’t be fun, at least for a while. But, if she keeps it up long enough, will I become conditioned to daily ejaculations? Will I produce more semen? Will I look forward to that daily orgasm instead of dreading it? I suspect that if she can keep going long enough, I will probably learn to produce the necessary semen. I might also learn to look forward to the daily activity. It might become an anticipated and expected part of my day.

Once this routine is fully established, I am sure Mrs. Lion will then lock me up without orgasm for an extended period of time. At least, that’s what she suggested. Will it be that much harder to accept? Will the daily teasing feel crueler? I’m sure it will.

The biggest question is whether it is possible to condition me to daily ejaculation? Even before we began enforced chastity, my free-range orgasm frequency was between one and three times a week. I have no doubt that Mrs. Lion will be able to get me off every day. It may be hard work, but if she wants it to happen it will. We’ll know if she is successfully turning back my sexual clock by how I respond to daily orgasms once they are an established part of our routine.

I think there are a couple of indicators that will reveal if this experiment succeeds. First, will I get erect without too much effort. Last time she tried this, after a few days it was very difficult to get me erect. Mrs. Lion quit at that point. If when she persists regardless of how I feel about it, will I regain the ability to enjoy 7-day-a-week ejaculations? The second indicator will be semen production. Will there be semen every time I come. In the past I have had semen-free ejaculations if orgasms were frequent.

If she decides to do this experiment, I suspect that it will take quite a bit of persistent daily orgasms with me having trouble cooperating before the clock will be turned back. I haven’t read of any experiments like this. Perhaps sexual decline is permanent and can’t be reversed. Even if that’s the case, I know that Mrs. Lion has the tools and the skills to force orgasms out of me no matter what. That would be much harder for me than being forced to wait.

On the other hand, if persistent effort pays off, then Mrs. Lion’s orgasm control can go into high gear. Even very short waits will be difficult and frustrating to her newly-conditioned lion. I think I could easily get in the habit of expecting every session of weenie play to end in orgasm. When that suddenly stops, it will be very frustrating for me.

I may be completely wrong about what I think will happen. I have written for  years that extended waits are fairly easy for me to handle, since my desire to come diminishes after a couple of weeks. Now that Lioness 2.0 edges so effectively, after over three weeks I am hornier than I can ever remember being. 2.0 loves my frustration. She seems eager to do more sexual experiments on me. As she likes to point out, “You will have a good time, eventually.”

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In: Mrs Lion Comments, Orgasm denial

I find myself starting to waver. Part of me wants Lion to wait till March for an orgasm, and part of me wants to give him one today. So far, despite his best efforts, I’ve been able to restrain myself. Last night he was bucking into my hand and almost gave himself an orgasm. He’s desperate. He’s frustrated. He just wants to come.

Lion presented an argument a few weeks ago that I should make him wait a long time and then make him have an orgasm every night for a certain length of time. He’s curious how that would go. So last night I asked him what he thought would happen if I made him come as many nights in a row as he’d waited. Tonight will be 22 days. If I give him an orgasm tonight and one for the following 21 days, could he handle it? He said I’d probably have to get creative to get him aroused that many days in a row.

If you remember, when we started our little “game” of enforced chastity, I did make Lion come every night for a while. When we first moved in together, Lion wanted sex every night. That got to be a bit too much for me, so we backed off. Eventually we backed off so much that sex was non-existent. I figured Lion would love having sex every night again. Nope. His body had changed. And his mind was set on chastity. Now he wanted to be teased and denied. But not for too long. His sweet spot, he figured, is every four days. As long as I give him an orgasm every four days, he’ll be a happy camper. Silly boy. He shouldn’t have given me so much power if he wanted the every-four-days arrangement.

We’ve gone through a few different iterations of trying to figure out when he should have his orgasms. Roll some dice, flip a coin, tell him when he’ll come, don’t tell him when he’ll come. Currently, I’m deciding when and not telling him. Except, he was sick for a while and didn’t care about sex so much. February was dragging out and his wait time was lengthening and I realized he would be close to his longest wait by the time he cared about sex again. So why lose all that ground he covered when he was sick? Let’s incorporate it into a longer wait.

People who try to break world records rarely try to break it by one. If I’ve gone to the trouble of bouncing on a pogostick for almost 207,000 bounces, I’m going to try to smash the record by going to 208,000 or even 250,000. Last night was Lion’s 21st day. He’s matched his longest wait. Why make him come tonight? With March right around the corner, it made sense to me to make him wait till March 1. At least. That makes February a one orgasm month. His fewest orgasms per month since we started male chastity. I think that’s a big accomplishment. Lion just wants to come.

There’s no real reason Lion should wait until March 1 for an orgasm. It’s just a date that seemed attainable. There’s no real reason he has to wait more than 21 days. There’s no real reason he has to wait 4 days. They’re just numbers. All that matters is that I want to give him an orgasm. Or that I don’t. The bottom line is that he’ll come when I want him to come, because I said so. And that’s all the reason I need.

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In: 2.0, Lion's Journal

Like most guys who get into enforced chastity and domestic discipline, I like to think of these activities as sexy games. As long as the waits aren’t too long and the punishments not too severe, the reality of what we are actually doing doesn’t get to the front of my mind. Lately this has changed.

My current wait is considerably longer than I want. Thanks to skilled, daily edging I am desperate for release. I expected to lose interest and coast through long waits. This just isn’t happening. I like that this is an expression of Mrs. Lion’s control, but I want to come. Boy do I want to come.

The ideas of rules and punishments have always been exciting to me. The idea of being spanked is a turn on. Now, however, the rules are being strictly enforced and the spankings are something I dread. Mrs. Lion has some alternative punishments in mind. I am very sure I will strongly dislike them too. I know what you are thinking. They’re supposed to be. I get it. But dealing with the reality is still difficult for me.

Mrs. Lion’s inclination is to pull back if she thinks I am upset. She worries that I will stop wanting her or will reject her if she upsets me too much. She certainly can make me angry and pouty. I am not getting my way. I started something I can’t control or stop. And, it’s exactly what I wanted. Depending on the time of day, I might say I don’t want it any more. But that isn’t the truth. I think what I started is what we both need. I just have to learn to live with the reality I created.

It’s like writing a story and waking up one morning to find you are now living in the plot. The actual experience of receiving a strong spanking, for example, is nothing like reading about one. It’s certainly nothing like my fantasies. Watching the days tick by waiting for a chance to ejaculate is also a very hot fantasy. The reality is frustrating, sometimes very exciting, but always just hopefully waiting for my number to come up. It’s not a mental game where I abstain from getting myself off as part of “orgasm control”. I can’t get myself off. I can’t even get hard. The only thing I can do with Mrs. Lion’s penis is to use it to pee. Nothing else is possible.

I expect that over time I will grow accustomed to the frustration. I will learn to more gracefully accept punishment. I realize that it doesn’t matter if I learn or not. I will have to wait and I will be punished if I break a rule. That is completely out of my control. No one asks me if I like it or not. I don’t get a vote.

The fact that my opinion doesn’t count at all is probably the most significant change my situation has created. Mrs. Lion’s success as my keyholder and disciplining wife depends on her learning to ignore my feelings on these matters. She may ask for my opinion on something we do, but I have absolutely no say over what finally happens. I can’t reject a punishment. I can’t demand and receive an orgasm. This is a novel change in my life. I am used to being in control. I asked to surrender to Mrs. Lion. Now as she grows in strength, I have to handle the changes this forces in me. The key words are “have to”. I’ve lost my ability to choose.

There’s a kind of mathematics to power exchange. As Mrs. Lion’s power grows, mine has to diminish. There’s  no way I can retain my traditional role while Mrs. Lion asserts her growing power. On the whole this is exactly what I wanted from the beginning. But there are jarring moments when I am punished or arbitrarily frustrated by withheld orgasms that move the needle more in Mrs. Lion’s direction and make me aware that my loss of control is real. I suppose I’ve gotten my way most of my life. I have a lot to learn.