Most of my posts are upbeat. We’ve worked through the big issues created by enforced chastity and domestic discipline. So I don’t have much to complain about. Nevertheless, there are times when I want to relax and not worry about breaking rules. It’s completely irrational.
I started thinking it would be nice to have a domestic discipline holiday when misdeeds would be overlooked. I realize that’s a horrible idea. It isn’t because it would be bad to be exempt from punishment. It’s that I am saying that I want to be free to be rude and not aware of Mrs. Lion’s feelings. That’s just stupid.
It would be unnatural if I didn’t want to avoid punishment. I know that I can (mostly) keep the paddle away if I do what I am supposed to do. I’m whining about putting in the effort I should to build our already-wonderful relationship. Am I asking to be permitted to cut Mrs. Lion off and interrupt her? Do I really want to show disrespect by eating first? I don’t! Do I want to be spanked if I do one of those things. No, I don’t; but regardless I need the correction.
So what does that feeling I want a holiday from these things mean? I think it is very simple. I’m tired and grumpy. I didn’t sleep very well this past weekend. My allergies have been acting up. My energy is drained. It’s difficult to do anything. So, my mind drifts back to times when the only person I needed to think about was me. I could just pull the covers over my head and block out the world.
All of us feel like that from time to time. If domestic discipline is a form of D/S activity, then it would be fair to ask for a time out. As fast as I thought I wanted a holiday, I realized that none of the stuff we are doing is part of any scene. It’s our lives. Am I saying I want a vacation from my sweetie? No way!
Once I realized this, my thoughts of getting a time out vanished. I was still tired and grumpy and I still hated the idea of being punished, but I also knew that life doesn’t park for a while just because I’m out of sorts. Domestic discipline isn’t an activity we can put on hold. To try would be a disservice to us both. I guess that means that regardless of my mood or energy level, rules continue to apply and I am accountable for my actions. Hmm, sounds like I’m a grownup. How about that?
I think it’s healthy to wish for a discipline holiday. It’s healthier to recognize that’s a stupid concept. I can keep the paddle at bay if I just do what I should. So every day I am well behaved is a discipline holiday. What a concept!