Lion is home. For some reason, I feel like I missed him more this trip than I have before. My theory is that I was worried about him because I know he’s been in more pain. The previous trip, he was able to get an injection to keep the pain at bay. This time he only had Tylenol and pain meds. I’d like to wrap him up in a cocoon until his surgery, but I know I can’t do that.
The good news is that he’s horny. Of course, pain and adjusting back to our time zone will likely quash that feeling. But I take it as a good sign that he’s feeling horny at all. He hasn’t been. He’s not usually when he’s on business trips though. Now he’s home and things can get back to normal. At least the normal that is peri-surgery normal.
On Monday, Lion has his pre-op appointment. We’re hoping to learn a lot about his aftercare. We’ve researched and researched, but there’s no substitute for answers from experts who do this every day. I hope they can put some of his fear to rest. I’m trying to alleviate his fear that I’ll leave him because he’ll be difficult to live with. (That’s why alcohol was invented.) I know, deep down, he realizes that fear is unfounded.
In addition to getting Lion ready for his surgery and recovery, I’ve been busy coming up with ideas to get “us” through it. We both fear losing ground in our chastity/FLR/DD relationship. I know sex will be the furthest thing from his mind for a long time, but that doesn’t mean we’ll throw away everything we’ve worked for over the past three years. Nope. I’ll still be trying to keep him in check. A toddler can only get away with so much before he’s corrected. I think he’ll need that correction even more when he’s in pain. Someone to drag him out of the pity party and back into the real world.
I don’t think I’m being mean when I say that. I think sometimes people need that slap across the face to snap them out of a tantrum. Of course, I won’t be slapping Lion. That would be mean. I think a simple, “Enough!” might do the trick. A virtual slap, if you will. For the most part, though, I’ll be there to hold his hand and help him.