I have to say I didn’t realize Lion didn’t write a post until just now. He’s been falling asleep so often, I guess he couldn’t hold his eyes open long enough to type. That’s okay. He needs the rest. It’s difficult to convince him of that, but he does.
Lion has had a chance, over the past few weeks, to contemplate life and our version of male chastity, female led relationship and domestic discipline. He promises when he’s able to type with less pain, he’ll enlighten us. Not surprisingly, I haven’t thought too much about it aside from trying to gauge when he’ll be ready to start back up again. I don’t tend to think about it too much. I know Lion wishes I would. He wants me to read blogs and get ideas. I’d rather just go with the flow. If something doesn’t work, we’ll alter it or delete it from our repertoire. If something pops into my mind, we’ll try it. If Lion suggests something, we’ll try it. I’m happy with the way things are. Not right now, obviously. I mean when we get back to normal.
Believe it or not, Lion is still worried about his surgery doing irreparable damage to our marriage. I think he’s more worried that we won’t ever get back to normal and if this is the new normal then he won’t be happy. Despite telling me, from time to time over the years, that if we didn’t do any more kinky stuff or even have sex again he would be happy just to be with me, I know he’s lying. I believed him the first time. Then he got mad that we weren’t doing anything anymore. And that was before the bad old times. Lion definitely will not be happy without sex and, yes, he does need his kinky stuff too.
Well, I’m putting it in writing that Lion will have sex again. And kinky stuff too. He just needs to be patient with things. Healing takes time and energy. I’m tempted to tell him that I won’t do anything with him until the doctor clears him to go back to work. On the one hand, if he’s cleared for work then he should be ready to go for sex and play. On the other hand, he may be ready before then. His appointment is twelve days away. A lot can happen in twelve days. That’s why I’m playing it by ear. Once Lion can stay awake for any length of time, I’ll grab the Magic Wand and see what we can do. Until then, he’ll have to settle for snuggling.