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The weekend’s here. Last night Mrs. Lion gave me another orgasm. There was a trace of semen. I’m not convinced that pain killers are responsible for my dry orgasms. I have no idea what is behind this unwelcome change. Yesterday, I had my weekly physical therapy. It was not as painful as I expected. It still hurt.

Neither of us is back to normal yet in terms of our power exchange. I’m glad right now because it’s really hard for me to think about much beyond work and my recovery. I hate being dependent. I think Mrs. Lion is having some trouble with having to do everything around here on her own. I feel guilty as hell about that. It will be at least another six months before I can lift more than a couple of pounds with my right arm. Mrs. Lion knows this and lets me know she will take care of me no mater how long it takes.

So, neither of us has a lot of extra energy right now. I still fall asleep if I lie down to watch TV. It’s rare that I get more than two or three hours of continuous sleep at night. Last Monday night all this sleeplessness caught up to me. I got to sleep at about 2 AM. Mrs. Lion couldn’t wake me at 6:30. I woke by myself at 11:30 AM. That’s the latest I’ve slept in many years.

All this isn’t an excuse. It’s just a progress report. We’re both committed to male chastity and domestic discipline. We’ll do it. Our blog is still not up to normal. We have about 1,200 posts that are as yet not restored. The problem is being worked on. I’m hopeful that we can get everything back before too long. There are some very good people working on it.

There is good news. My libido has returned. I may not ejaculate, but I want sex. I’m also gaining range of motion with my right arm. While I can’t lift anything, I can now reach up and scratch my head. I’m able to drive and will probably be able to commute next week. Recovery from the surgery is much like the way our male chastity and domestic discipline has grown. It’s been slow, bumpy at times, but steady. I don’t think we are different from others doing the same thing. Kink is very hard to sustain 24/7.

I think that my recovery is bringing us closer together. Mrs. Lion and I get closer when we work together. I am incredibly lucky that she loves me.

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I took the night off last night. By that I mean we didn’t play. I didn’t explain anything to Lion, but he was snoozing a little again so I guess he got the idea. Or he didn’t care. I was a little overwhelmed with chores that needed to be done when I got home. Plus traffic was bad so it delayed my arrival. And both of us forgot it was punishment night. Lion reminded me this morning. I guess it was just an off day for both of us.

Tonight we’ll do better. I need to start off with some swats for missing punishment night. From there I’ll do some edging. I haven’t decided if I should march headlong into making him wait at this point, or if I should give him an orgasm to make sure his semen production is indeed back to normal. I’d say I know which he’d vote for but sometimes I’m not sure. When I think he’d love an orgasm, he’d rather wait. That’s okay. He can’t figure me out either. He’ll say he’s sure I’ll want to do X, but I really want to do Y. I guess with all our talk of communication and knowing each other, we’re still pretty much a mystery to the other.

Along with the chores that come with a weekend, I think we need to get back into some sort of rhythm when it comes to playing. Not that we had any real schedule to begin with, but weekends usually have some extra time to play. We should at least snuggle more. I know it’s my fault that we don’t. I keep my nose buried in the iPad too much. While Lion recovered, I lost myself in my stupid games. Now that he’s getting better, I need to get better too.

Well, now Lion has a little more to look forward to the weekend.

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property of lioness tag
This tag says it all. I belong to Mrs. Lion. There’s no question of that.

It’s going to be a while before I am locked into the Jail Bird again.  While I can dress and undress as well as unzip and use a urinal, sitting on a toilet and getting up again can be challenging. I’m improving at this necessary skill, but it is still difficult. Now that Mrs. Lion will be edging me again, avoiding illegal touching will be unaided by my cage. I can do it. It’s difficult at times, but I can handle it.

Wednesday night when Mrs. Lion gave me a handjob, I produced some semen. It wasn’t much, but since Mrs. Lion fed it to me, I can attest it was real and there was enough to make me grimace. Mrs. Lion thinks the narcotics stopped my semen flow. I haven’t taken any in several days. Maybe it just takes time. My pain level has been very low. That can also be a contributor. Orgasms feel the same to me whether or not I ejaculate. However, Mrs. Lion likes semen whether to consume it herself or feed it to me.

Before moving to this server, I had a widget that kept track of the date of my last orgasm and kept track of how long I waited between orgasms. Sadly, the necessary plugin for this feature isn’t available. Is this feature something you read and like? Let me know. I can do something to provide a similar feature if you want it.

It seems that many guys who are practicing male chastity like to keep track of their sexual activity. I keep a spreadsheet that records the date of each orgasm as well as how it was delivered. It also reports the wait between each one and the average wait I experience. I started it because neither Mrs. Lion nor I are very good at remembering stuff like this. There are times we want to know such things, hence the spreadsheet.

As a reader, is information like this interesting? I suspect it isn’t. A couple of years ago, I created an application that allowed readers to see the same data that is on my spreadsheet. Almost no one visited it. I wonder what intimate details of our lives are most interesting to you. Over the years we’ve gotten some feedback.  People have expressed interest in how are relationship is going and how enforced male chastity and domestic discipline affect it.

Mrs. Lion and I are happy to share this information. In fact, that is our top priority. Sometimes it makes us look inept or unfair to one another. We’re constantly learning. Both practices are intimate and vary widely between people who practice them. While we’re in our fourth year of all this, I think we are still beginners. We have a great deal to learn.

Yes, we have made changes that we both think have improved our marriage. But we have a lot to learn. We are committed to continue. My expectation is that Mrs. Lion will continue to evolve as a disciplining wife. I will learn to submit more completely. What we half-jokingly refer to as Lioness 2.0 represents the next step in our evolution. Mrs. Lion defines that as a stricter, more vigilant version of herself. 2.0 is interested in results from me and isn’t concerned how I feel about her methods.

I welcome this upgrade. I think I will get an increased sense of security living with 2.0. Make no mistake, the current lioness delivers a lot of pain when she spanks me. 2.0 will probably do that more often and more severely. I’m not looking forward to that. However, as I’ve been told, how often and hard I get spanked is up to me. Cold comfort for a poor, lion.

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Last night was the return of the porcu-Lion. I put twenty-one clothespins on my balls. He always looks like a porcupine when I do that. It was, by no means, the most clothespins I’ve gotten on him. The record is somewhere in the fifty-something range. I wasn’t going for a record. I was going for a happy Lion.

While I was putting the clothespins on and taking them off, I was stroking my weenie. I even edged him a few times. I noticed it was a little difficult to tell when he was getting close. Apparently I’ll need more edging practice. Lion doesn’t think I do, but he’s willing to take one for the team and allow me to use him as a test subject. What a guy!

Perhaps the best news from last night is the return of Lion cum. It was only a little and it was somewhat watery, but it was there. Yay! At first he didn’t think there was any, but he was convinced when I fed it to him. He is definitely on the mend. I guess it really was the narcotics that stopped his ejaculations. Now that he’s weaned off of them, we’re back on the right track.

I know Lion was wondering if he’ll go back in the cage once he’s producing semen again. I think being in the cage is tied more to his physical well-being that his sexual well-being. Can he maneuver himself well enough to accommodate having the cage on? I think not. He’s barely able to maneuver himself without the cage on. I don’t have an exact date or milestone in mind, but I think his recovery has to be further along than it is for the cage to go back on. However, I believe all other rules can be reinstated. Uh oh. Poor Lion.