Wednesday night I was feeling horrible. My nose was stuffed up and kept running. Isn’t that a paradox? Anyway, it was difficult to get to sleep and even harder to stay sleeping. I woke up at 3AM and watched a couple of “Match Game” recordings on our DVR. Then I fell asleep. It felt like I was sleeping only a short time when I woke up again. The programmed coffee pot was grinding the beans. My alarm was beeping. It was morning.
Something was different.
It’s hard to explain. I felt quiet. That’s the only word that makes sense. Some background noise had stopped. It took me a few minutes to realize that the pain was gone.
All of it.
Here I was, stuffed nose, coughing, but still feeling peace. I thought my shoulder pain has been gone most of the time and only flared at night or after physical therapy. I was wrong.
My shoulder has been hurting me for over a year. I learned to ignore most of it. Apparently, when I thought I was pain free, the pain was in the background. Yesterday, it was completely gone. And I felt something that felt totally new: no shoulder pain. I’m not saying that I don’t hurt all the time. My shoulder reminds me painfully when I move in a way that it doesn’t like. But then the pain stops. Stops.
Every morning since a year ago last month, my shoulder complained loudly when I woke up. Yesterday, it didn’t hurt at all.
I know I am nowhere near recovering. I have to painfully gain range of motion. I get physical therapy three agonizing days a week. But if I can feel like this even part of the time, I know the suffering is worthwhile.
What does this have to do with enforced chastity and? Not a thing.
I still have a cold and my interest in sex still seems low. Who knows? Maybe no distraction from pain will help my libido. Maybe a spanking will hurt more than my shoulder. Well, I’m sure that will be true.
It’s the beginning of a new day for me. My head is stuffy. I’m coughing. I am light-headed. Who cares? I’m pain free!