There’s been a lot of discussion about how long I should wait before my next ejaculation. Of course, only Mrs. Lion knows when that will be. My interest in ejaculating, or for that matter any sexual activity has varied widely over the last weeks. It’s clear that my level of horniness doesn’t increase in some mathematical way over the period of my wait.
I haven’t thought much about this before. Mrs. Lion has wondered what would happen to my interest in sex if orgasm is postponed for a long time. I realize that my current wait (25 days as of today) isn’t that long to some guys. That’s not the point. Mrs. Lion wanted to know what would happen to my interest in ejaculating as I waited for my turn. We both paid close attention to my state of interest. The results surprise me.
It seems that my interest in sex during this wait, varied with no clear relationship to timing. Mrs. Lion edges me almost every day. She gets me erect and then brings me to the edge of orgasm over and over. Sometimes, when she started trying to get me hard, I didn’t feel turned on at all. Being male, after some “encouragement” I became erect. Then, after a while, I felt ready to ejaculate. Of course, Mrs. Lion stopped before I could.
The only constant is that she can get me hard and to the edge regardless of my expressed disinterest in sexual activity. That doesn’t make a lot of sense. Shouldn’t my disinterest prevent me from getting hard? It has in the past. Of course, in the past this disinterest was within a few days of an orgasm. It might be considered an extended refractory period.
In this case, I’m far from my past ejaculation. Maybe that’s the reason for my reserved attitude toward sex. I know that the best I am likely to do is be led temptingly close to ejaculation and then left high and dry. That is. after all. the game we are playing. It’s what we want. That means my apparent disinterest isn’t emotional. I’m a willing accomplice, after all. It must be coming from a deeper, subconscious part of me.
This isn’t a serious issue since we know that I can be aroused. I think it can be a problem when I finally get the chance to ejaculate. This deep, subconscious force can prevent me from enjoying orgasm when it finally arrives. I think that’s happened in the past. Apparently, I need to expect to finally come in order for me to experience the full pleasure of orgasm.
All guys have ejaculations with varying degrees of enjoyment. Yes, we like them all. In my case, some are much better than others. At the bottom of the scale are orgasms that almost hurt. I just want them to finish. This happens most often when it’s been some time since my last one. My emotional arousal wasn’t nearly as high as my physical readiness to come.
I try to help Mrs. Lion succeed in edging me. I want to give her notice of my impending entry to the point-of-no-return emission phase of male orgasm. Once I enter that phase, if she stops stimulating me, I will have a ruined orgasm. I guess I am trained to provide adequate pre-emission warning. So, when she intentionally goes past that point and makes me ejaculate, perhaps I am subconsciously unhappy I failed. Or, that might not be it at all. I don’t know.
Would it help if there were some sort of signal that she wants me to ejaculate? Would that warning change the way it feels when I come? If Mrs. Lion starts to talk to me the way she would to a dog when encouraging him to fetch, would that tell my subconscious to allow me to let go? Should she say, “Come on Lion, come for me boy…come, come.”
That might be funny, even appeal to my interest in humiliation, but I don’t know if it would enhance my orgasm. Since encouraging me, only to edge me, is already what she does, verbal or physical cues to signal actual ejaculation would spoil some of our fun. I don’t want that. The simple fact is that my orgasm after a long wait isn’t Christmas morning. It doesn’t have to be fireworks and symphonies. It doesn’t even have to feel good at all. It’s just another ejaculation. Others will feel better. It’s nothing for either of us to worry about.