Sometimes Lion gets loopy at night. We haven’t been able to figure out why this happens. He’s wobbly when he walks and he loves to have deep discussions.
Last night’s discussions ranged from having sex like we did when we first met to whether he should wear the cage anymore. When I give him short answers he says he can’t tell if I’m answering truthfully or just to shut him up. Usually I’m tired and trying to sleep because I have work in the morning. The answers are both truthful and just to shut him up.
Lion insists I thought he was crazy when we first met. I didn’t. I think he mis-remembers those first few meetings. We met online and after a few days of talking we decided to meet. For sex. Just sex. Neither of us was looking for a long term relationship. I was sowing my wild oats that I hadn’t done in my early years. At least that was the plan.
I don’t remember how many times we met before Lion sprang bondage and spanking on me. I know I was already in too deep to say no. He had me bamboozled. Hornswoggled. Hoodwinked. I might have thought he was crazy at that point but it was too late. At any rate, aside from the first meeting being anal sex, I don’t really remember much about later sex. He says he would give me oral sex and/or I’d ride him. Then I’d either give him a hand job or oral sex. OK. Sounds reasonable. I remember bits and pieces.
He would like to go back to that. Me too. How do we do that? Things have changed. I’ve lost my sex drive. We’ve tried jump-starting it to no avail. So far we don’t know what to do about that. And our relationship has a whole new dynamic. The old saying “you can’t go back again” may apply. We can definitely revisit this.
As far as the cage is concerned, I asked him if not wearing the cage anymore meant we’d stop orgasm control. He said of course not. I said I’d have to think about it. I do. I can’t just give an off-the-cuff, I’m-too-tired-to-answer answer. We need to discuss something like that. Why does he want to be wild? Will he want to not be wild at times? I have a lot of questions.
We’re entering our fifth year of chastity. Neither of us thought it would last this long. I certainly didn’t foresee domestic discipline or female led marriage. Who knows what Lion has in store for me in the future? I am positive about one thing – it won’t be dull.