So much for my deciding when Lion is caged and when he isn’t. He was caged for approximately 24 hours before he couldn’t sleep because it was bothering him. There was a sore spot. And he’s wild again.
At this point it makes little sense to lock him back up since he’ll be unlocked on Saturday anyway. I just get the feeling he’d want out of it right away. And I’d be nice and unlock him. (For the record, I was trying to get some sleep myself last night and didn’t feel like arguing with him about being in or out of the cage.)
We’ve already established that he doesn’t need to be in the cage. He never really needed to be in the cage. He was never going to cheat on me with another woman. He did cheat by masturbating but I never said he couldn’t. I never realized he did and I suppose it’s really not as severe as cheating with an actual human being. But now I know he won’t cheat by masturbating either. So why worry about the cage now?
I don’t have an answer to that. For some reason when I decided I would be the one deciding whether he’d be in the cage or not, it was fine if he was locked for a week and then wild for two weeks. But when he wants out only 24 hours in I’m hearing my mother in my head when I used to run in and out of the house. “In or out! Pick one!”
Am I upset that I’m not the one deciding? Do I really want him in the cage and his wanting out is annoying me? Does it really bother me all that much or was it just a pain to get back out of bed last night to unlock him? I don’t know. I’ve been digesting it this morning in between working and trying to reset the password for my airline app so I can get my boarding pass next week. Obviously it’s not weighing all that heavily on my mind. I’m just confused about what reaction I’m actually having and why. It definitely requires more thought.