Lion hasn’t been horny lately. Maybe it’s the orgasms spaced so closely together. Maybe it’s the power outage. Maybe it’s even his punishment on Thursday. I’d hate to think it’s the latter.
I’ve unlocked him the past three nights and he hasn’t responded to me. I’ve left him wild for a few hours. Last night he said he hoped I was going to leave him wild. He said he wanted to be locked up. He said it was important for him to be locked up. Once I decided he should really be locked up he wants to be wild. I told him it was too bad. I’m keeping him locked up.
Last night he asked how I think about him in the cage. I know I overthink things a lot. Lion is the king of overthinking. I said I don’t think about the cage as much as he does but I think it makes me feel like he’s more dependent on me and like I own him. He seemed happy with that. But at the same time I think he’s worried about something.
I’ve told him I’m not going anywhere. I don’t know how to prove to him that I’m sticking around. I don’t know how to prove to him that I love him more than anything. I know he’d love it if I got my libido back. We’ve tried the whole route of letting him give me orgasms whether I want them or not. It just makes me feel bad. Any time he brings it up I feel bad that he feels like he’s failing me somehow. So then we both feel bad.
We’d both rather feel good. So from now on, Lion, don’t worry about making me feel good. If that what’s going on right now, knock it off! I’m fine. We’re fine.