Last Saturday we slept late. This Saturday Lion slept late. I was up earlier to let the dog out. I’m still very tired. I’m back to not sleeping well. I’m not sure I ever really reached a point of sleeping well, but some nights are better than others. There’s a lot to do around here but I’m not very motivated to do it. I’ll probably wind up taking a nap and then maybe I’ll feel better.
I did not follow Lion’s suggestion of doing the Box O’Fun items he picked on Thursday night. It may be a cop out, but if I decide he shouldn’t have been spanked or we wanted to put off the pegging for another time, then we should do it that way. I’m in charge. What I say goes. Right?
Of course, I can see the argument against it. We have the Box O’Fun to prevent inertia. If I bring it out then we should follow what it says. Maybe it’s because I’ve been so tired. I just didn’t have it in me to do any pegging. It did cross my mind that I could shove a butt plug in and be done with it, but a butt plug isn’t pegging. On the other hand, I’m not sure Lion could have handled going straight for pegging. Perhaps a butt plug would have been the best idea.
As you can see, none of this is written in stone. Lion thinks he’s getting off easy on nights that I agree to delay punishment or play. I don’t see it that way. Most of the time I think I’m the one getting off easy. I don’t have to do whatever it is I’m delaying. Maybe I’m tired. Maybe I’m distracted. Maybe I just don’t feel like doing it. Yes, I can power through. Yes, I have powered through. But if I don’t have to then it’s a win for both of us.
3.0 doesn’t always have to be mean. 3.0 can say, “I understand you don’t feel up to being punished so I’ll let it go till tomorrow” because 3.0 understands that Lion is tired or distracted or just doesn’t feel like doing it. I always thought of 2.0 as a benevolent dictator. Why wouldn’t 3.0 be one too?