Over the years she’s been writing this blog, more often than not Mrs. Lion refers to making me come as “taking an orgasm”. I hadn’t given her choice of language too much thought up until now. I always thought of her as giving me orgasms. The reason I did this is because there very few times I can remember that I didn’t want one. But does “taking” mean against my will? I don’t think so.
In in a very real sense all of my orgasms are taken from me. They are involuntary. It may seem like splitting semantic hairs, but as a male in enforced chastity, I don’t choose when I get stimulated sexually or when I get to ejaculate. I never have the opportunity to get myself off. The fact that I’m generally happy when Mrs. Lion does make me ejaculate doesn’t change the fact that it was involuntary.
I think she likes this. I have read other women write about how they enjoy seeing men get involuntary orgasms. One wrote about attaching a vibrator to her partner’s penis and then sitting back to watch him ejaculate. She loves that he had no control at all over the process. That’s my story in a nutshell. Most of the time I’m stimulated when Mrs. Lion decides to play with my penis. Most of the time she chooses to bring me to the edge of orgasm and stop stimulating me. On other occasions, she’ll keep going and I will ejaculate. I didn’t get a vote as to whether or not I was ready or even wanted to come.
I always thought of those orgasms as gifts. Being taken to the edge a few times makes me very anxious to be brought over the top and allowed to ejaculate. That strong desire blinded me to the fact that the entire process, including my orgasm, is completely out of my control. I don’t know if Mrs. Lion is consciously aware of this. In a way, I think she must be.
She’s steadfastly refused to associate whether or not I get to ejaculate with anything else in our lives. For example, on more than one occasion I’ve suggested that orgasms could be rewards for good behavior. Withholding them could be part of punishments. She never liked this idea. In the context of involuntary orgasms, it makes perfect sense to prevent me from having any mechanism to either get one or prevent one. There is no action I can take that allows me even a little control over getting to come.
In one respect I do have some control. Mrs. Lion is usually willing to let me put off sexual activity if I don’t feel like having it. I can let her know I don’t feel horny and she will refrain from stimulating me. On the other hand, I can let her know I’m really horny and she will remain unmoved and disregard my desperation and keep me orgasm-free.
The fact that I can put off sexual activity doesn’t change anything about the involuntary nature of my orgasms. I can reliably be expected to want sex almost all the time. There’s nothing either of us can do about my refractory period. That’s not the point. We’re not talking about preventing orgasms. We’re talking about taking them.
If I’m horny and locked and loaded for sex, Mrs. Lion is in the catbird seat. There’s absolutely nothing I can do to prevent her from making me ejaculate. There’s also nothing I can do to convince her to let me come. My orgasm, if she chooses to take one, is absolutely involuntary on my part.
I had no idea that involuntary mail orgasms is a female form of recreation. Some women are turned on when they can produce them in the male they are with. I’m not claiming that it makes Mrs. Lion wet when she gives me an involuntary orgasm. I am saying that either consciously or unconsciously she likes the concept.
She freely admits that she likes to make me come. I don’t think she’s ever analyzed why. I’m sure part of it is she likes to see me having so much fun. But I don’t think that’s the main reason. If it was, I’d be getting a lot more orgasms. I don’t think it’s a pure power trip for her. I know she’s not wired that way. Also, if it were just power, she’d be a lot more assertive in other areas of my life.
No, it’s more complicated than that. Consider how she dislikes the idea of me masturbating. She was genuinely surprised and unhappy to learn that I jerked off when we first began enforced male chastity. Her first rule was that I’m prohibited from getting myself off. Obviously, that means she wants to be the only person who can make me ejaculate. That also means that she and she alone decides when she takes an orgasm from me.
I’ve always liked the idea that she has this control. I’m not sure I ever really considered why. I chalked it off to the general desire of surrendering power to my lioness. Of course it fits into that need. However, it’s more than that. There’s something exceptionally strong about never controlling when I get to come.
Over the years there have been some “accidents”. Mrs. Lion has made me ejaculate when she didn’t intend to. These occasions are few and far between. Nowadays, they only happen when she pushes me too close while edging me. When that happens, I get a ruined orgasm. That is probably the ultimate involuntary orgasm. It’s something I would never ask for or do to myself. Of course, it is pleasurable up to a point, but just a little more hand action would make it so much better.
I like that when this situation occurs, Mrs. Lion keeps her hands to herself and allows the ruined orgasm to finish. Sometimes, she will wait until my excitement dies down and then milk any semen out of my penis that still remains. She won’t attempt to give me a full orgasm. The entire process is 100% involuntary.
From my perspective, all sexual activity is involuntary. It only goes as far as Mrs. Lion wants to take it. If she wants me to have an orgasm I get it when and in what manner she chooses. I don’t participate. Even on the rare occasions when I am allowed to penetrate her vaginally, she’s on top in the reverse cowgirl position in 100% control of how far I get to go. This is also true when she orally stimulates me. She’s become expert at orally edging me. Just because she puts my penis in her mouth is absolutely no guarantee I’m going to get an orgasm.
She’s worked very hard to perfect her control. There are very few accidents. Even when we have an accident, it’s not something I caused. I have absolutely no control over any sex I get. All arousal and orgasms are involuntary. This is a very powerful exercise of Mrs. Lion’s feminine power.