2019 Sucks

Aside from being busy unpacking, I’ve been busy beating myself up over the loss of our parrot. I just know I did something wrong. He trusted me and I let him down. I’d do anything to get my big bird back. Needless to say, I haven’t been in much of a mood to do Unlocktober.

Lion says he understands, but I’m not sure how much longer he’ll understand. His natural inclination is to want to be close after something like this happens. Maybe he’s just quicker to bounce back. I have the power of guilt on my side. It’s not so easy to bounce back.

Yesterday, we were discussing his still-pending punishments. I know it’s not the right thing to do, but at this point I’m willing to let them go and start from scratch whenever I find the damn paddles in the mess of boxes. After all, isn’t it more important we find his clothes and the rest of the silverware? I guess he’s thinking that getting back to normal should start with enforced chastity and our female led relationship. I’m less concerned with that. We’ll get back to that as soon as we can find things and we’re not tripping over boxes.

Of course, I’m not saying all the boxes need to be unpacked. We lived in our old house for thirteen years and there were still boxes that weren’t unpacked. I’d just like to get to the point that more of our belongings were out of boxes than in. I’d like to be able to cook a real meal. I’d like to be able to find the thing I just put down because I put it on a clean counter top rather than on a cluttered one that seems to gobble up whatever is placed on it.

I know Lion is a sexual being. He craves attention. Maybe I just need to identify two goals per night that need to be done and then the rest of the attention goes to Lion. I’m convinced the goal needs to be to unpack two specific boxes. If the goal is to clean off the counter, I could be there all night. Since I helpfully labeled boxes as vaguely as “kitchen” or “bathroom”, I might just stumble across that one item that has been eluding us. So far it’s been like playing “Where’s Waldo?”.

Added to the chaos, is the fact that Lion’s birthday is Wednesday. I don’t have a thing planned. Ordinarily, we’d either celebrate the weekend before or the weekend after. I’ve been so focused on the move that I don’t have a clue what to do. I did find a steakhouse nearby that looks promising. That may be the answer.

My goal for the day, not the unpacking goal, is to pull myself together and get back on track for Unlocktober.