Mrs. Lion seems determined to condition my rear end for full-scale, ten-minute spankings. On Monday, I was invited to ride the spanking bench again for another lesson. It was a very painful lesson with Mrs. Lion using one of her leather paddles. When she was done, she said she hit harder for five minutes.
She has developed a spanking style that maximizes my pain. She starts with light, almost pleasant swats. Then, without warning, wham, she hits hard for several. She backs off when I’m squirming and yelping, then does it again. Each series features harder, more painful swats. As she goes, the bursts of those painful swats get longer and longer.
I get the feeling that she is working up to nearly continuous hard swats. If she continues my daily lessons, I’m sure she will easily reach her goal. I realize that she doesn’t need to worry about how well I am taking the spanking. My new harness doesn’t let me do more than squirm an inch or two in any direction. It’s her kindness that limits how soon she will get to full-force spankings.
So far, the lessons have just been to train me. No rules are in effect yet. I assume that when Mrs. Lion restores the disciplinary portion of the program, punishment spankings won’t be as considerate of my tender rear. Those spankings are intended to teach me something else.
love, honor, and obey
Speaking of lessons, Mrs. Lion still has difficulty extending her game to any failure to honor or obey. I love her and that will never fade or need correction. This isn’t a serious domestic disciplinary issue. She gets to decide what she wants to enforce. I see it differently.
As I wrote yesterday (“Reflections On A Decade Of Male Chastity And Spanking“), Mrs. Lion finds it difficult to punish me for annoying her. She’s improved in letting me know when I’ve pissed her off. She will snarl now and then when I do. But we still haven’t reached the point that she will actually punish me.
I think that this goes back to her feelings of self-worth. She’s told me that she worries about being unfair to me if it turns out that I’m not the root cause of her unhappiness. I get it. The thing is that she also feels fine about spanking me for no reason at all. We both know I need those “Just Because” spankings.
She may not understand that spanking for cause is way more powerful for me. Call it the spanking fantasy, but in my mind, being punished reaches far deeper than a spanking without a reason. That’s the game side of domestic discipline: catch and spank. Mrs. Lion likes the game when it comes to simple rules like chores.
I suppose she may worry that I will feel I am being unfairly punished if she tells me that I’ve annoyed her and then spanks me. That’s not going to happen. I’ve asked for DD. I may not like a spanking while I’m getting it, but we both know that it meets a deep-seated need. After all, I never objected to being spanked for getting a little salsa on my shirt. Why would Mrs. Lion think I would analyze my offense of annoying her and then decide she was being unfair and resent her? I wouldn’t.
I’m not asking Mrs. Lion to stop my daily riding lessons. I need them. I’m saying that spankings for a reason, even if the reasons are flimsy, are way more powerful for me. Maybe we both need lessons. What do you think, Mrs. Lion.
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