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In: Anal play, Bondage, CBT

I have so many balls in the air right now, I’m just thankful two of them belong to Lion. I got to play with those balls last night while I slid my fingers around in his ass. I figured my fingers were more intimate than a butt plug and I need to start him off slower than shoving a butt plug in. It was a happy coincidence that his balls were hanging down while I was in the neighborhood. I know I’m weird on so many levels, but I like balls. Many women don’t. And those who do tend not to like dangling balls. I love them. It’s one of my favorite views of Lion. I love watching him bend over to pick something up. Yum!

I play with his balls a lot while I masturbate him. I kiss them, squeeze them, tickle them, yank on them, etc. They are a multipurpose toy, really. And they are a pretty good indicator of when he’s getting very close. His balls tend to pull, shrink, for want of a better word, when he’s about to come. I don’t know the mechanics of it all, but it seems reliable. Once they make their ascent and the skin wrinkles up, he’s almost there. I wonder if there’s a similar indication for women.

Last night was the first step in getting things back to normal. I won’t say we’re fixed yet, but we have to start somewhere. I think tonight I’m going to insist on sucking him. It’s not just for his benefit, although I’m sure he’ll enjoy it. I love having him in my mouth. (See above statement about being weird.) I especially love when he gets hard in my mouth. There’s something powerful about taking a lump of soft skin and transforming it into a super-hard piece of man meat.

I hope I can get him super hard tonight. I haven’t been doing a very good job getting him hard lately. He’s not in a particularly horny place in his wait cycle, although last night he said he was very horny after we stopped. I may start out with some more ass play, but I also want to tie his balls up. I don’t know if I’ll separate them or keep them bound together, but I see some rope around his balls in the near future.

Perhaps I’m overthinking it, but I’m not sure how to tie Lion to the bed while I suck on him. Our restraints are based on his being in bed the normal way. When I suck him, he lays across the bed. It may be as simple as just attaching his hands to one side of the bed and his feet to the other. But a bed isn’t necessarily square so it may not work as well as I hope. We may have to experiment. I don’t think Lion will mind experimenting with bondage.

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In: Bondage, BDSM, Punishment

Lion was still sneezing and stuffy last night. For some reason, my sinuses were hurting too. Maybe it was sympathy pains. I decided to push off his spanking another day. I want all his attention focused on his rear end, not his nose. Besides, as Lion just reminded me, today is punishment day.

In his post yesterday, Lion says he doesn’t normally feel like doing anything sexual after a punishment spanking. I thought it was fine as long as there was some time in between. We don’t have to play after punishment. It makes more sense to have him stew in his own juices, so to speak. Rather than distract him from the pain, I’ll leave him to consider each movement and how much it hurts then and ponder how much it will hurt the next day. That’s a much more valuable use of his time. We can play the next day.

On that note, I will give Lion something to look forward to. On Sunday, I will tie him to the bed again. This time it will be face up. I haven’t decide what evil thing I will do to him once he’s in that position, but he has very little say in it anyway. It might be something he’ll enjoy. It might be something he won’t. I know he’ll like being tied up and from there he might be sorry I ever got new restraints.

He knows the things he won’t like. I’m talking about those tiny clothespins, IcyHot, ball swats, etc. While he will stay still if I use them when he’s not restrained, he obviously has no choice when he is. Then there’s the irony. He wants me to tie him up even though it means I can do the evil things to him. Of course, the larger irony is that he wants painful things done to him but insists he doesn’t like it while it’s happening. He maintains that it turns him on thinking about it before and after, but not during. I still don’t get it. Good thing I don’t need to get it to do it.

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In: Bondage, CBT, Orgasm

I went out to the camper yesterday. My goal was to take our puppy Willow into it so she could get used to it before we were all suddenly living in it on our trip. She was understandably confused. I pulled out Daisy’s toys so she’d be more comfortable. Maybe she’d be more comfortable when Lion was there too. Change is difficult.

Lion needed to go into the camper to get the Directv ready. When I came into the house, he said he wondered about the trip. As much as he wants to go, he worries about how difficult it will be to get in and out of the camper. It’s also difficult for him to get in and out of the truck. He asked me how I felt. I agreed it was hard for him, and I was also worried about how the dog would do. We decided to stay home. I suggested a trip in the near future to a dog-friendly hotel. It will probably be easier for all involved.

Since we’re staying home, I can wax Lion next weekend. He’s gotten furry again. It’s been at least four weeks. He’s not too furry, but I’ve started to notice. Next weekend is perfect timing for another session.

Lion wondered why we didn’t do anything Friday night. I was making up his pill packets. It takes a while, but it’s also sort of uncomfortable sitting in a weird position. Saturday night, he was sleeping a lot. We both slept a lot yesterday and could probably have slept a lot more today than we have. He woke up around 8:45 last night. He asked if I wanted to snuggle and wanted to know if I was okay. In his mind, it was two days of not doing anything. But he’d just woken up. He said he’s been awake for a while. Forgive me. I was letting him get his bearings before I pounced.

Earlier in the day, we fixed up the restraints I got some weeks ago. Lion has been looking forward to using them. There’s been so much on the bed because we have to keep it away from an inquisitive and chewing puppy that I decided the restraints were out for the time being. However, I could always tie his balls up. That’s also bondage. Lion likes bondage. He didn’t argue with the idea.

I normally tie his balls, make them bounce a bit, untie them and proceed to sucking. To mix things up a bit, I left him tied while I sucked him. I was able to make them bounce, and I tugged on them as I sucked. I’m not sure it made things more interesting or not. I could feel him getting closer. I got a little bit of an appetizer. He wasn’t making any noises, but I knew he was close. Without the benefit of panting, it would be difficult to stop short. I decided to charge right up the mountain and over the top.

Afterwards he said it had been 12 days, as if that’s a long time. Technically it is for him, but I could have (and maybe should have) made him wait longer. Maybe I will next time.

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How long should I make Lion wait for an orgasm? That’s been the question since we started enforced male chastity. I’ve tried different ways to determine it. We’ve had scheduled orgasms. Lion knew when to expect them. We’ve had pseudo-scheduled orgasms. I knew, but Lion didn’t. Of course, you could say I always know, and Lion doesn’t. Sure, he can predict when it will happen, but he doesn’t know. I tried to make him wait until he was super horny. Usually, it’s me that gives in. What can I say? I like giving him orgasms.

For a while, it’s been harder to get Lion to the edge. There may be a variety of reasons. Sometimes he’s tired. It could be age-related. There are times he feels he’s taking advantage of me because I don’t want sex for myself. All these things sabotage erections. I haven’t always been the best at helping things along. I know “all I have to do” is tie him up or shove something up his ass, and there’s a good chance he’d get excited. I talk a good game about doing things to him, and then I don’t do it. This has been a problem for a long time.

When we first got together, Lion had sex every night. Sometimes I spanked him or tied him up before I gave him a hand job. Back then, it was mostly hand jobs if I didn’t ride him. I think giving him sex every night might have been too much for me. After a while, I slacked off on playing with him so much. And over the years, I’ve slacked off even more. Last week, I revealed to Lion that I bought restraints rather than look for the ones we have. They are still in the packages. I had them on the bed when I got them. I was going to surprise him when I opened them. He was tired. I was tired. The only one not tired was the puppy. Maybe she needs the restraints more than we do.

Today I’ll take them out and put them on the bed. That’s the universal code for don’t-forget-to-use-them. We’ll both see them and know what it means. And then I’ll finally tie Lion to the bed.