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Okay, I’ll just say it. I miss sucking Lion. He has a statistic for every category imaginable. Does he have one for how he was edged? I wonder how long it’s been. I don’t need him to keep track of it. I just miss it and I would have done it last night if he hadn’t been so preoccupied with a hand job. Who’d have thought he’d actually prefer a hand job over oral sex? I also offered him his ride and he turned it down, although that I sort of understand.

Lion had a pretty long wait. I think his last two waits were both 21 days. I didn’t plan it that way either time. We’ve had a bunch of miscues and that’s made his waits longer. There have been a few days one of us didn’t feel well. There have been quite a few days I screwed up. No excuse. I dropped the ball and never picked it back up. We’ve had a few shoutless shouting matches. We tend not to have knock down, drag out fights. I won’t say no one gets hurt feelings, but we work it out eventually. Usually he can’t see that he’s wrong so I have to give in. (I’m kidding!) Sometimes we’re on different pages. For the past month, however, it seemed we were in different books altogether. Hence, the long waits.

I guess we went back to basics and I started off with hand jobs. For a long time, I couldn’t get Lion very far by hand. My shoulders and back would start to hurt and I suggested oral sex. He doesn’t usually turn down oral sex so he was happy to oblige. When we had out miscues, we decided to try again. For the past week or so, I’ve been giving him hand jobs exclusively. I say hand jobs. I don’t know what else to call it when I use my hand but only edge him. My hand hasn’t worked one hundred percent of the time, but it has been working better.

Saturday I had a big headache. It started in the morning, let off in early afternoon and came back early evening. I don’t think it was a sinus issue. It even hurt to snuggle with Lion. So much for his warmth being my cure-all. By yesterday, the headache was gone and we were back in business. I didn’t have a plan. I just went to work on my weenie.

I will say that the past few times, I’ve moved to his side of the bed, perched on the edge, to play with him. I assume that changes the angle and my grip. It seems to be a little easier on my shoulders. Maybe that’s why we’ve been more successful. It’s not like I never did that before. Whatever it is, I’m glad it’s working. And now that he’s had his full hand job with orgasm, I can suck him again.

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Lion thinks my grip has changed when I jerk him off. I’ve tried to remain constant. I think he’s the one who’s changed. When I agreed to his insane (my thinking at the time) idea of male chastity, I decided I needed to know how best to masturbate him. I’d been doing it for years, but I wanted expert guidance. Who better to ask than the guy who’s been masturbating him since he realized masturbation was a thing? I had Lion jerk off for me one last time. I watched carefully. Fingers there, got it. Speed of stroke, got it. I’ll never be as expert as he is, but I figured I could do it pretty well. And I think I did until very recently.

I have not been good to my body. I have a bum knee from a soccer injury that probably should have been looked at by a doctor, but we didn’t do doctors when I was growing up unless it was something major. I could still hobble around on it so I was good to go. I have many non-descript injuries suffered while building a house with my ex. Of course, I can lift fifty pounds while standing on the top rung of a ladder and hanging out over a roofline. My right shoulder is still sore from heaving softballs to home plate from the outfield during my son’s field day twenty-five years ago. The left shoulder and right knee probably gave out trying to compensate for their injured counterparts. Luckily, none of these things hurts constantly. The problems often occur from overexertion.

When we snuggle, and I start to play with my weenie, I make sure I grip him the same way he showed me. I won’t say I consistently grip him that way. If I’m distracted or tired, I don’t always do it correctly. From the picture on his post, you can see his fingers are just below the head. A week or so ago, he told me that grip was incorrect. Excuse me? He said he needs me to expand my grip to cover more territory. Um. Okay. Sure. So I started doing that and he seemed happy. And then he wrote that my grip now tends to cover more of his cock and he thinks that’s because my shoulders hurt. Huh?

Sometimes it feels like I’m trying to hit a moving target. Maybe he needs my grip to be all over with special consideration given to the spot just below the head. I’ve never asked if my tongue manages to hit all the right spots when I suck him. I wonder if I’m inconsistent there too. Maybe he doesn’t mind because I’m sucking him and that just feels good no matter what I do.

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We talked a little bit yesterday about what I wanted Lion to do rather than just lay there. The problem is, I don’t know. He said he’s sort of stuck in position by the bed. Our Sleep Number bed isn’t as bad as sinking into a memory foam mattress, which left us feeling like turtles stuck on our backs, but it tends to keep you in place. I’m not even sure I was thinking about him moving anywhere. I think it was more of an attention thing. With the TV on (not muted, not paused), I guess I felt like he was distracted. That’s one reason I hate spending so much time in bed. We’re just always there. I feel like I’m competing for TV time and whatever else is going on. I also wonder if Lion would be snoozing so much if we watched TV in the living room.

Regardless of that, I moved over to snuggle and started playing with my weenie. He was responding, but he wasn’t getting quite as hard as I would have liked. When I sat up to play with him, I really didn’t want to use my hand. We’ve been experimenting to see if I can still edge him with my hand. In the back of my mind, I thought it was the best of both worlds. If I can give him an orgasm by hand, I have the option of keeping it for myself or making Lion eat it. He hates it, so obviously, it’s something I do from time to time. However, I miss sucking him. I shared that with Lion, and he graciously suggested I should do it. What a guy! I mean, what a nightmare having a woman suck your cock.

I managed to edge him at least three times. He was very close for two of them. Then he sort of lost it. I think it still felt good, but he wasn’t as hard. Unwilling to give up on him, I kept going. I thought maybe I could revive him. He doesn’t always stop. Sometimes I’ve just let him come down too much, and more sucking gets him hard again. Not this time. I asked if he was broken. He said he wasn’t, but we weren’t getting anywhere. Then my arm started to fall asleep. You know, once that happens, it’s very hard to get that tingling to stop. But I had to.

I don’t know how long it has been since I edged Lion. I don’t even know how long it’s been since I sucked him. I think I’ll continue to prime the pump with my hand and follow up with my mouth. It seems to work best for both of us.

[Lion — I’m sure I will regret this comment. If Mrs. Lion wants to feed me semen and she is using her mouth, she can kiss it to me after I have come.]

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Lion was lamenting the fact that he hasn’t had any full hand jobs in a while. No, he wasn’t exactly lamenting because he gets more than his share of blow jobs, but he is correct in that I haven’t been able to get him much further than an erection by hand. I set out to try and change that last night.

I can usually get him hard. Sometimes I can get him very hard. It all depends on how horny he is and if I’m doing it “correctly”. There never used to be a problem, but now, unless I hold him a certain way, we don’t get very far. I assume it also depends on whether I’ve tied him up or used clothespins or some other torture device. The more turned on he is, the better shot I have at getting him hard. Duh!

I won’t say a blow job guarantees victory. He’s remained stubbornly soft quite a few times. It’s not that he does it on purpose. It’s probably the same reasons he doesn’t get hard for hand jobs. The difference is after he gets an erection. Then a blow job has a higher degree of success.

When I suck him, I tend to close my eyes. I think I can concentrate more on his noises and if he changes motion or hardness. Plus, the scenery isn’t the most exciting. When I give him a hand job, I either close my eyes for the same reason or I stare off into space. I’m still concentrating but the scenery is different. The problem with doing this when I’m jerking him off is that I sometimes change my grip without realizing it. Plus, Lion can see me and it may look like I’m bored. Not bored. Concentrating.

Neither of those tactics worked last night. I don’t know if I’ve just lost my touch giving him a hand job or if I’ve spoiled him too much with blow jobs. What guy would want a hand job instead of a blow job? Now I’m left with a dilemma. Do I continue to see if I can regain the ability to edge him manually or do I go back to the tried and true blow jobs? I know he’s been conditioned to only having sex on his back. Have I conditioned him to only want blow jobs?

On the other hand, last night was just four days after his last orgasm. Is that enough time for an experiment? Can he possibly be horny enough to make the assumption that hand jobs don’t work? Well, he can be horny enough. He has been in the past. However, I don’t think I’m ready to throw in the towel just yet. I’ll keep trying hand jobs. I may mix some blow jobs in, but I’ll stick to hand jobs to continue the experiment.