Thursday night I ended up getting a ruined orgasm. Mrs. Lion didn’t intend that to happen, but it did. At one moment I was very aroused and feeling that I was getting close. She stopped stimulating me, but my arousal continue to grow. It felt like a switch was thrown inside me and I was over the top.
This is new. Generally, I can tell when Mrs. Lion has gone too far. It will take a while, as much as 15 seconds, before I actually ejaculate. However, I know it’s coming. This time it was a surprise to both of us. It was a sneak attack; no warning at all. This has happened once or twice before. I can’t detect any pattern. When it happens neither of us gets any warning. She was disappointed that she went too far.
For some time I’ve produced very little semen. The common wisdom is that as long as there’s any semen left, it’s possible to immediately stimulate the penis for additional ruined orgasms. That’s not true in my case since I have a tiny, almost-nonexistent supply. I wonder if my ability to come the next day is improved because the orgasm was ruined? I doubt it, but I am curious.
My sexual response has become less predictable. I can’t understand why. I suspect it may be related to the surgery I had in March. After all, my spinal cord does connect my penis to the brain. It may be the surgical disruption is affecting me. I’m not really happy about this. However, we still have fun.
Slowly but steadily I am working off my punishment backlog. Thursday night Mrs. Lion raised some welts with her tenderizer paddle. She only used the smooth side, but that was enough. She let me know that I can expect daily spankings until I’ve worked off the entire backlog. I’m glad I have a tough hide.
Yesterday, we got an interesting comment from one of our readers, Juan Carlos:
“I think the FLR or WLM is a bad business for the woman. She now has more work with your penis and your narcissism.”
That’s an interesting observation. My recent post, “The Submissive Mystique” talked about how much work being dominant can be. It pointed out that a disciplining wife doesn’t just sit around eating bonbons. It also pointed out that all of the services the so-called submissive performs would be done without the power exchange. This prompted Juan Carlos to decide that a female lead relationship is bad business.
I can understand how he got that impression. People who love one another unselfishly do things to make their partners happy. Mrs. Lion is my disciplining wife because she knows I’m a happier critter when she is strict with me. She has no illusions that she needs to be that way in order to get me to do things for her. With or without our FLRD, I’ll do anything she wants because I love her. She does all the extra work of dominating me because she knows it makes me happy.
The simple fact is that we are both happy. I can’t speak for her, but I believe she doesn’t consider herself overly burdened by the tasks associated with our FLRD. I’m absolutely sure she doesn’t consider playing with my penis to be a distasteful chore. I think she likes it.
I don’t think she particularly likes spanking me. She also isn’t too fond of cooking. She does both because they are needed. In the past, I did almost all the cooking. Since my surgery I haven’t been very stable on my paws. So, working in the kitchen is challenging and somewhat dangerous for me. Mrs. Lion has taken up the slack. As I regain my equilibrium, I’ll pick up more of the cooking. Of course, she’s stuck with all the spanking.
She’s been thinking about other ways to punish me. I don’t believe anything has come to mind she feels could replace application of her paddle. If she does, I’ll be the first to know and you’ll be the second. I’m being careful to avoid commenting on ideas she may express in posts. I don’t believe I should have any input in how she punishes me. That doesn’t mean I don’t have an opinion; I just better keep my mouth shut.
Mrs. Lion is very collaborative by nature. She is always interested in my input. Sometimes that even extends to how I am to be punished. In the past, I’ve offered many suggestions. I suppose if I come up with a new idea, I’ll share it. Otherwise, she has all the information she needs. I know she’s not afraid to experiment, so I will be her willing subject when she wants to try something different.
I earned all of the punishments last week by spilling food on my shirt. I just couldn’t help myself. I wonder if it wasn’t a neurological glitch as my spinal cord settles into its new spot. I can’t explain it any other way. Since last weekend, I haven’t done any spilling. I didn’t do it on purpose. I just felt less coordinated.
It was fortuitous that I did get food on myself. I think we’re getting back into our old pre-surgical FLRD now. Mrs. Lion is no longer inclined to spare the paddle. She’s not accepting any excuses for infractions.
I’m not sure how many more punishments are in my backlog. I’ll find out when Mrs. Lion tells me we are up-to-date.