Jail
I’ve been thinking about this on and off for a long time. Lion has been wild for quite a while. I have no real plans to lock him back up. But what if I use the cage for punishment? Then the Jail Bird would live up to its name.
What if, for example, Lion really pissed me off and I decided he needed to be locked away with no possibility for parole (play) for X amount of time? I’d be taking away his favorite toy even if he hasn’t been masturbating or even touching himself inappropriately. I’d be making his life more difficult because he’d be pinched and be forced to pay more attention when he pees. It would certainly get his attention.
Ironically, Lion has been looking at a new cage to review and it has an insert with teeth on it. He said it looked like something that could be used for punishment. Little did he know…. Granted, the Jail Bird doesn’t have teeth. It just limits his contact with my weenie.
I’m not at all sure what Lion would have to do to push me far enough to consider slapping him in jail. It’s just a thought at this point. But it is something that has cropped into my mind for a few months. Actually, when Lion mentions being locked up, I think of it.
It makes me think of grounding a teenager. “You did this to yourself, young man. Now you won’t be able to go to the prom. You’re grounded!” And Lion would be locked away. I’m sure he wouldn’t be very happy about that. At all. But it would make him think twice before he did whatever it was he did to get himself into that predicament.
I haven’t made a final determination about using the cage as punishment. Lion and I can discuss it. There may be issues I haven’t thought of.
Lion Training – Phase 2
After my post yesterday, Mrs. Lion and I had a little talk about continuing our FLR with punishment. This talk took place after I was spanked for breaking a rule. Mrs. Lion commented that my bottom wasn’t very pink. I had no response to that. I asked her about my post that questioned whether or not we should continue our FLR with discipline. She answered,
“We aren’t stopping.”
Those three words say it all. We aren’t stopping.
Fair enough. I wonder if that means I go back into my Jail Bird too. I’ve been wild for a while now. I really like the ease and comfort of peeing without risk of accidents. I like the access to my penis. I don’t masturbate. I’ve been trained not to. Think about it. A male trained not to jerk off…ever. Well, it’s true. I admit that I can, on rare occasions, make myself hard. But I never go far enough to even edge myself. Years of wearing a chastity device worked. I’m sexually trained.
I expect I will continue to wear the Jail Bird. There’s no strong reason not to wear it; it is an unmistakable sign of my submission. On the other hand, being wild is a lot less trouble for me. Mrs. Lion will decide what will happen.
Yesterday afternoon, Mrs. Lion’s post hit the nail on the head. She understands me very well. Most interesting to me were her comments about making more rules. She wrote:
“I’ll have to come up with some more rules for Lion to follow. They have to be something of some consequence, like his interrupting me. What else does he do that annoys me? I’ll have to think about that. There are a few options. It’s all a matter of whether I want to actively work to change them.”
That statement shows we have moved from the let’s try it out phase to Mrs. Lion seriously working to train me. She recognizes that making rules for me, represents a serious effort to change me. I’m really being trained!
This is a profound realization for me. I work hard to avoid getting food on my shirt (that’s a rule). A mistake brings me pain. That is the most trivial rule, actually designed to make sure I get punished regularly. Another rule is that I must wait for Mrs. Lion to either eat first or give me permission to eat. Initially, I thought this was a trivial rule like spilling food on my shirt, but it isn’t. This rule requires me to pay strict attention to her and wait for a signal in order to eat. This is actually as serious as interrupting. Breaking it shows disrespect. Interrupting is my most serious rule. It upsets Mrs. Lion when I do it.
You really can’t train me to completely avoid spilling food on my shirt. Yes, I’ve learned to be more careful, but it will happen. Punishment for this is more a reminder that I need to pay attention to what I’m doing. Eating first and interrupting are much more serious and deserve harsher punishment. As of now, I can’t tell the difference between punishments for different offenses. Perhaps the punishment needs to be much more severe for behaviors that truly need changing.
We’ve talked about this before and Mrs. Lion agrees. I suggest that maybe we need to make two small changes: First, it would help if before and during the spanking that Mrs. Lion tells me why I am suffering. If she wants to change my behavior, telling me how I can avoid more pain is appropriate at the time I am being punished. The second suggestion is to make behavior-changing punishments more severe, and to be even harsher if I repeat an infraction too frequently.
Identifying new areas I can improve or amuse Mrs. Lion and then training me to change is clearly the next step for us. It won’t be easy.
Please Ma’am, May I Have Some More?
Lion always seems to want more. He can’t help it. He gets excited. He wants harder spankings. He wants harder pegging. At least he does until those things are imminent. Then he’s not so sure. And during, he wonders what the hell he was thinking. Afterwards he may be mad, hurt, upset, in pain, etc. That’s how it goes with spankings. I haven’t really pegged him hard yet. I assume it will be the same pattern.
Yesterday we got two more dildos. As if Lion needs more dildos. We also went through our collection to see which dildos were similar in size to the Silk. It turns out a lot of them are roughly the same size. I chose one that is mostly smooth but has a head and one that is more realistic with veins and a head. One of them will be the lucky winner tonight when I peg Lion. Actually, Lion will be the lucky winner.
I haven’t decided if I’ll use the RodeoH again tonight. Since the dildos are the same size, there’s no reason I couldn’t use it. I’m just not sure I want to. I have more control with my hand. But if I don’t use the RodeoH I won’t get used to it. Of course there’s no rush to get used to the RodeoH. I guess it just boils down to my preference at that point in time.
Last night I whomped Lion with a bloodwood paddle. It was the shorter one with the larger head. On one side we’ve affixed the tread tape. For the most part I whomped him with the regular side. I only used the rough side for a few whacks. His butt took a while to get pink. Then it was very pink. I was nowhere near bruising him.
I did what I thought was a slow buildup. Then I threw a few harder swats in. And then a few more. At the end I hit him with a bunch of harder swats. Again, he could have taken more, but I was done with him. Then I made him stand in the corner for about ten minutes. He wondered why I didn’t make him sit on the stool. Sometimes standing in the corner is sufficient. As he said afterwards, his infractions weren’t really all that severe anyway.
I’ll have to come up with some more rules for Lion to follow. They have to be something of some consequence, like his interrupting me. What else does he do that annoys me? I’ll have to think about that. There are a few options. It’s all a matter of whether I want to actively work to change them.
Is It Time To Stop?
Yesterday was punishment day. On Sunday, I ate before Mrs. Lion. Last night, she remembered my transaction and I was spanked. I wasn’t a bit aroused at the prospect. I just wanted it to be done so I could relax and watch TV. I think that’s a sure sign that the novelty of our FLR with discipline has completely worn off. Does that mean it is time to stop? Could we stop if I decided I wanted to?
Mrs. Lion works hard to provide the FLR disciplinary environment I asked her to provide. She’s become very effective in her role. I’m accountable for every infraction of my rules. Disciplinary spanking is a regular part of our lives. So now that all this is well out of the fantasy-made-true zone, we can consider the true value of FLR with discipline. I realize that I’m not in the best position to make a decision regarding the value of our power exchange. I think there are objective ways to determine if we are going in the right direction.
One important signal is how Mrs. Lion approaches it. She has become more consistent and her spankings more painful. Last night, when I asked if I could finish my post before being spanked, she cheerfully told me I could. She informed me that she had already selected her paddle. Clearly, she doesn’t hate punishing me. I suspect she might enjoy it; just a little.
The big question is: Has FLR with discipline helped me be better? Have I learned anything under the shadow of the paddle? I think I have. I believe I interrupt less and I pay a great deal more attention to what Mrs. Lion wants. The frequency of rule breaking has also gone down.
Ok, I know that so far the rules are relatively trivial and the punishments are often fairly mild. But that was the idea. We both wanted a chance to take baby steps before moving to the next level. Now that we are incorporating all this as part of our routine, where do we go now?
I don’t know the answer to that question. I suspect Mrs. Lion doesn’t either. Maybe there isn’t an obvious answer. Maybe I need more rules that are easier to break. The reason that might help is the easier it is for me to get in trouble, the closer attention I have to pay to being obedient. That makes sense to me, but like most things, it provokes another question: Is our goal for me to become more obedient?
It might be. Can I be obedient and still be myself? I’ve thought about that a lot. I don’t think I can ever be subsumed by enforced obedience. I’m too independent. No matter how many spankings I have to endure, I’m not going to change. What will change is that Mrs. Lion will come into sharper focus. I will learn to do whatever she wishes. But I will still be me in the end.
My answer to the initial question about it being the time to stop is, no. It’s still very early in the process of my training. Check in with me in another year or so.
